they say we’re heading for a heart heart heartbreak

close your eyes..
count to three & i’ll never appear infront of you anymore.

HEART HEART HEARTBREAK
by
BOYSLIKEGIRLS

Don’t say you love me when you’re out the door,
Cause I know things are different than they were before,
You kill me with your kiss, you’re so hard to resist you when you look me in the eyes tonight,

They say we’re heading for a heart heart heartbreak,
And I don’t ever ever wanna hear you say,
Don’t say you love me don’t even, don’t say you love me you’re leaving,
Were heading for a heart heart heartbreak,
I’m gonna gonna turn around then walk away,
Don’t say you love me don’t even, don’t say you love me you’re leaving,

You say we’ll think it out through the thick and thin,
When the walls came down you wouldn’t let me in,
We’ve been through it all, my backs against the wall,
Its crashing down on me tonight,

Now were heading for a heart heart heartbreak,
And I don’t ever ever wanna hear you say,
Don’t say you love me don’t even, don’t say you love me you’re leaving,

Were heading for a heart heart heartbreak,
I’m gonna gonna turn around then walk away,
Dont say you love me don’t even, don’t say you love me you’re leaving,
I’m sick and tired of this whole situation, here comes another fight,
Were heading down with a strain conversation, no
Don’t say you love me tonight,

Now were heading for a heart heart heartbreak,
And I don’t ever ever wanna hear you say,
Don’t say you love me don’t even, don’t say you love me you’re leaving,
Were heading for a heart heart heartbreak,
I’m gonna gonna turn around then walk away,
Dont say you love me don’t even, don’t say you love me you’re leaving,
Were heading for a heart heart heartbreak,
And I don’t ever ever wanna hear you say,
Don’t say you love me don’t even, don’t say you love me you’re leaving

when a heart breaks no it don’t breakeven

“you’ll definitely agree with me, hurt to yourself
brings more joy then hurt to the other”

posting frequently on the other blog. I really have to wake up now, my attitude to studies in school doesn’t satisfy me. Sleeping late & waking up early in the morning. I’m simply exhausted.

BOYSLIKEGIRLS in Singapore tomorrow! (: I’ve been looking forward to this. Kane’s not going. I’m just going with my sis & two cousins. Have to be there by 5 & I need to rush home tomorrow.

I’m also meanwhile multi-tasking. Having to prepare logistics & decorations for this week’s Welcome Recruits Parade. Loads of things to be bought. & still I have to do the decoration by friday. Reporting to school early at 8.00 am just to confirm that everything’s ready.

Went home today after spending time with my two juniors,Kian Rong & Ming Quan. Went home myself as usual,loving long bus-rides. Tend to sleep pass over the stop i’m supposed to alight. Alright I better rest now in order to not sleep past my school time.

“your love is just a lie…“

when you look me in the eyes

you don’t realize why i’m avoiding you.

I’ve got that big desire to sleep in class every single day. I’m super sleepy like a pig man. I went studying in the den today,myself. I did maths for 45 minutes then this sudden urge told me that I must clean the den! So I went clearing stuffs & arranging things around. I’m non-stop sneezing now,thanks to all that dust.

I’ve been stressing on :

Yes,Art..
I’m trying to get myself to be more inspirational while drawing, you get scolded for this & that. You do it good or you do it bad,you get scolded. I’m very afraid for my uniform,because of all that paint. Can’t even dare to think about it.

I’ve finished my first piece of work since I joined art as my subject. I hope get better everytime I do a new piece (: I’ll be Kane’s inspiration & Kane will be my inspiration.

Yes, BOYS LIKE GIRLS!

Bought tickets for the concert already! The only thing i’m waiting for is whether if Kane’s going? I can’t wait,it’s next Tuesday & i’m gonna get some rest. Hoping to get some photos when I come back! (:

I’m really to push myself to sleep & i’ll do that right now so that i’ll prevent myself from sleeping tomorrow!

- you’ll never know why.

With Every Step You Climb Another Mountain

There Are No Boundaries.

I’m feeling a little unappreciated down here. You came to my house,played & people had to solve your problems with your parents. Supposed to do your research but you played. When you left,you told me to help you with your work. That’s very irresponsible,at least help in the research.

Everyday has been so tiring. Non-stop of lessons & school work to be done. & another hand i’m struggling with my sleeping time, I just can’t get to sleep & the next morning I feel totally shagged out.

Good news for me today was to know that 9 boys joined the 34th BB Company. I was delighted to see the population growing & I hope to care for everyone of them. Letting them treat each of themselves like brothers. Unlike how I treated some when I was in secondary one. May they grow in the BB.

It’ll be a short post,here’s a song that describes you can go how far you dream of going with no boundaries drawn.

NO BOUNDARIES

Seconds hours so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment lasts forever
Then you feel you’ve lost your way
What if my chances were already gone
I started believing that I could be wrong
But you give me one good reason
To fight and never walk away
So here I am still holding on

With very step you climb another mountain
Every breath it’s harder to believe
You make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is goin’ nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand
And show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

I fall to the land there to stand on the edge
What if today was as good as it gets
I don’t know where the future’s headin’
But nothing’s gonna bring me down
I’ve jumped every bridge and I’ve run every light
I’ve risked bein’ safe and I always knew why
I always knew why
So here I am still holdin’ on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it’s harder to believe
You make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is goin’ nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand
And show you that you can

You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule ’cause
There’s nothing between you and your dreams

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it’s harder to believe

Yeah
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it’s harder to believe
You make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

Punctured

I See You ..

I’ve been really busy with my school work! Not being able to blog daily like how I use to before. At times I really feel like updating because I thought I have been keeping too much things to myself but whenever I come upfront to the monitor. My mind goes “snap!” blank.

I’ve just been promoted from Lance-Corporal to a Corporal. Yes indeed I felt happy but I just didn’t seem to feel the same way when I got my first chevron. Life is tough,so is the times in BB. I’ll like to congratulate the newly-promoted boys & also to push on the rest of the boys who didn’t get to promote on that day. All the way! (:

I’ve been totally exhausted for this past 2 weeks of school. Studies are getting serious & it’s getting me serious. But first of all I really dread for a good night rest. I force myself in lessons to be awake but somehow can’t help it when History lessons comes ): I will just collapse on the table. Eyelids shutting like as if they were magnets.

I’ve been trying to put myself used to doing art almost daily, slowly getting the hang of everything. Firstly I need to master the colours & strokes. Today was just shocking okay. Mr. Zaki suddenly came to me & told me Ms Su should choose you for SYF. My expression was already showing that I was not confident. It was funny at that very moment.

I have tons of school-work waiting for me now.
& I have to force myself to revise my guitar chords & fingering so that I can contribute to my BB Co. as well as playing to God.
Will try to find time blogging again soon (I hope)

I miss you but I never regretted making that decision…

Blessed Christmas

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Firstly a Happy 14th Birthday to Daphne (:
Thank You to those who planned together with me to celebrate for her that night. Especially Johnny(Wei Hua) who decided to do something for her birthday. Hope she would have an unforgettable birthday this year with her Best friends.

Christmas has been so different,particularly this year’s. I knew the meaning of Christmas but I didn’t felt I enjoyed this year’s Christmas with my family. Every year we would be going for Church Services together,followed by supper & maybe even walking down Orchard Road. Coming home at 11 & waiting for midnight to open our presents.

This year sister went staying overnight, I went for different services & the bottom of the Christmas tree was empty. Once it reached 26 Dec at midnight,I felt like Christmas was gone so soon. Only time I felt great was hanging out with friends to the ARPC Musical. I will think of something to plan for next year’s Christmas.

December had lots of camps. Especially …

BASIC CAMP!

The camp had bonded everyone together,especially between Woodlands CF & BASIC. I met many people there & they were awesome. Camp was awesome,venue was awesome,food was awesome(compared to many camps) & activities were awesome (: Looking forward to another year in BASIC & hopefully like what Joey said, “Hope there would be HOT time!”

- only hear the God stuff.

Have been training for CCA Promotion Day,it is unique this year. Fun & exciting! Have been halfway through,hopefully it finishes by the next training. Look forward to a fun-thrilled Fancy Drill performance people! (:

here’s a song for you :

TIME FOR MIRACLES
ADAM LAMBERT

It’s late at night and I can’t sleep
Missing you just runs too deep
Oh I can’t breathe thinking of your smile
Every kiss I can’t forget
This aching heart ain’t broken yet
Oh God I wish I could make you see
Cause I know this flame isn’t dying
So nothing can stop me from trying

Baby you know that
Maybe it’s time for miracles
Cause I ain’t giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it’s time for miracles
Cause I ain’t giving up on love
No I ain’t giving up on us

I just want to be with you
Cuz living is so hard to do
When all I know is trapped inside your eyes
The future I cannot forget
This aching heart ain’t broken yet
Oh God I wish I could make you see
Cuz I know this flame isn’t dying
So nothing can stop me from trying

Baby you know that
Maybe it’s time for miracles
Cuz I ain’t giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it’s time for miracles
Cause I ain’t giving up on love
No I ain’t giving up on us
Baby can you feel it (can you)
You know I can hear it (hear it in my soul)
So can you feel it feel it….
You know it’s time….

Baby you know that
Maybe it’s time for miracles
Cuz I ain’t giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it’s time for miracles
Cuz I ain’t giving up on love
You know
Maybe it’s time for miracles
Cuz I ain’t giving up on love
No I ain’t giving up on us
I ain’t giving up no
Oh I ain’t giving up on us

never say never

“lost & wandering without directions.”
It’s very hard getting back to track.
I have to keep walking..

I cannot take that much pressure.

wont post too much,more on private.
yet again,bye.

here,i’m giving it back to you

“why am I bottled with anger & the lack of patience today?”
I should reflect.

maybe after I have let you go,you knew how to flap your wings.
& while you’re flapping it,I feel so heartbroken.
You were just too held up to notice..

Just wanna pass this message :
Sorry Wei Hua,Hong Liang,Darrell,Jing Long & those who I rant/shout at them today in Camp. I set my expectations to high & I didn’t like playing soccer in that manner. I have to lower my self-esteem sometimes.
Again,sorry..

turning point?

“I don’t show but it’s actually the worst turning point of my life.”
I don’t feel appreciated always.

pain & sorrows.
bye.

thrown away

“leave me alone,just leave.. “

today I felt a kind of feeling of rejection. For quite sometime I haven’t feel left out due to close relations with my friends. But it happened today and after a while I felt like maybe it’s okay.

I don’t plan to go out much or plan much outings this Holidays. I’m just settling for BB activities which are fun & exciting.

Tomorrow evening,i’m leaving home for a good reason. For Lifeskills Camp (:  Time for unwinding. I have not yet to pack my things yet,my mind keep telling me to do it tomorrow morning. But i’m trying to do it later at night.

Post is short because my everyday life is short. With friends leaving me out,it’s great. At least I won’t have to get disappointments..

hope you guys are delighted.